im worried for myself.
i don't know why but i really really really have this strong urge to just quit school. i don't feel competent at all to even survive this sem and i am so stressed up this week i feel like breaking down everyday.
can't really complaint much at home because im like at home every single day and my mum needs me to help her with alot of stuffs, but i have this pile of schoolwork to complete and i just couldnt seem to focus on getting them done properly. more like i anyhow do all and just be glad its over. i know this isnt right but, damn i hate school.
shawn's been encouraging me alot over the phone. i just cant wait to see him on saturday and be relieved that everything's gonna be alright. it's been so hard for me to motivate myself. i lost the drive in me. i lost my cheerful and optimistic personality, i lost my hardworking self.
and i want to find myself back.
i just need people to understand what it going through my head nowadays, but then again sometimes i cant understand myself either.
i just want to cry it all out. tired of pretending to be still my usual self all the time.
or am i actually pretending?
i don't know me anymore :(
somebody please help me.