and it's one of the days when i'm feeling so down i'm here to blog.
somehow i realise when i'm feeling rlly messed up and i need to talk..like say smth, i'll be here to blog.haha guess thats why i haven't deleted this blog even though it's as good as dead.
hmm i dno is it because my mensus are coming or is it i'm gg bughouse or at risk of getting depression, i feel that nothing seems to be able to light me up recently..like not much stuff can actually make me feel happy and able to smile with my true feelings..haha and i wonder why is that so
maybe im just being lame..who knows?somehow i just feel empty.
when i'm in school..all i do is lessons, eat, say hi to a few friends, more lessons, home.
when i'm at home, i'll be finding stuff to eat, fetching brother, listening to all the mahjong scrambling sounds, the loud talkings of the aunties, bathe, dinner,hmwk,sleep.
boring life.like really REALLY boring.
i want smth interesting in my life.but how?when will that actually happen?i have no idea.
hais.sometimes, i really hate studying.studying is so..AVERAGE. like everybody in sg of my age are leading this kinda life!just studying studying so tht next time can get a job get married have kids die. it's so according to routine.i don't want it.it sucks to be so normal.i want to be abnormal.but seriously, i think my life so far is nothing but pathetically boring.
hais.
screwed up life.
when will life seem more happy for me?
seriously, i don't know when.
and when will you be here for me?
i hope it's coming soon.