"i'm a naughty girl" : ___
hais..indeed i am a very nughty girl huh..i s'pose many many MANY people do agree..bad results, bad attitude, disobedient, nv learnt my lessons..etc etc..too many to name i guess..
sometimes i wonder..why m i born like this..why did i do all the bad things tht i've done..what will i be doing nxt time?wad if i nv learn..n i'll continue going badder n badder as the years go by..perhaps in future one of the jail cells is reserved for me?perhaps nxt time i'll be able to lead a gd life n hold a good job?i nv know..and seriously after this results thing it really woke me up..i mean seriously! think about it..if i dun make it for my studies, my future is ruined. totally..no more chance of getting good-paid jobs n stuff..seriously, nothing for me..i'll become a loser in the society..i cant imagine tht happening to me, to my friends, or to anybody whom i noe..
however, if u look at it in the other way, if everyone does become well talented ppl n everyone holds good-paid jobs, then who will be the losers of society?like those lower paid jobs n stuff..who will be the ones doing them? it seems like there's nv a win-win situation in society..i mean its like there's definitely this "higher class" n a "lower class" difference tht sepeartes ppl by their status..its kinda sad to noe tht all of us cannot be standing at equal status n leading good life..maybe nxt time washing toilets shld become a high-paid job too?sigh..
wad if i really retain this yr..i cant take it u noe..i'll jus kill myself somehow..but then again, after i die where will i go?will i still be able to be me?as in..do i still hve any thoughts or any feeling or any sign of looking at the world again?or will i just vanish?hmm..so weird..
haha i think i'm being pretty dumb here..seriously stupid thinking bout all these stuff..no wonder ppl always say i think too much..but yea i like to think about wad will hpn to me if___hpns or if___hpn..ok i'm being weird here..
maybe someday i'll be enlightened n study real hard for my exams..n then i'll get good results?ok tht's kinda impossible for me..i'm lousy at my studies..its proven many many times..maybe i really shld accept the fact tht i'm not fit to be in this school..is either i buck up?or i die..simple theory..haha
& i love you_dear
it's a place for my thoughts.
