camp is coming. time for the big show. yeejin, you've got to just act it all. you are giving face. just go there, complete the 7days, and leave.
act. act as though you are enjoying it. act like a damn awesome member of main comm. act. act it the best that you can. its gonna be tough, but just act. its all you have to do.
she said it, he said it, "camp is the last one alr". okay. the last show then. after camp im gna disappear.
retreat? main comm final retreat? am i going? NO.
im not gna enjoy it. i know it. im not even capable of forcing myself to go. im not even willing to pay that $200. i dont care whatever you say, im not going. its entirely against my will to go to this retreat. i am supposed to quit the comm alr. but just to give u all face, to not spoil the reputation of the club, im hanging there. to hang it there till camp is over.
but retreat? its entirely a have fun thing. its a whole 3 days for u all to try your best to psycho people to re-run. well sorry, i know im definitely not gna have fun there, and by not going retreat im not spoiling any reputation. so, no. i'm not going. thats it. im gna fuck care all of this miscellaneous shit.
ball. haha. its a joke. theres like a month left maybe? and ive done NOTHING~~~
i dont wna bother about it. u all just throw it in my face and expect me to do it. "oh we think you are very creative and we know you have the capabilities." bullshit. thats just an excuse for u to throw something else to me to do because u think im a good bully??? YOU ARE DAMN WRONG.
im gna say no. from today onwards, im gna learn to say no.
NO, im not going for retreat.
NO, im not gna rerun for any fucking shit there is.
NO, im not gna dye my hair and spoil my hair with bleach.
NO, im not gna make my boyfriend suffer anymore.
NO, im not gna neglect my family and my studies.
NO, im not gna let myself be on the brink of having depression.
NO, im not gna promote this club to anyone else.
because, i just don't feel like it.